The Eyeopener is starting an online series celebrating the short stories, poems and other literary works from the RU Creative Writing Club. New pieces will be published weekly.
“5 months” was submitted by Jovana Rai.
After 5 months, I finally changed my background because there is no us anymore. There’s no point when we are nothing, but I can’t stop thinking about you and how in love I am with you. If I could exchange my last words, they would be different, trust me.
After 5 months, I am high and low on love and wondered if someone could help me stop thinking of you because I get panic attacks thinking about her having you entirely. Thinking of you rattles me to the core and I have this feeling that I’ve lost my mind entirely. Love’s not supposed to make you feel like you’ve dying a thousand deaths, but if it doesn’t ….is it really love?
After 5 months, I tried to convince myself to stop thinking of you and move on with myself, tried to tell myself that it’s some sort of illusion and you’re just a pretty face with a beautiful soul…perfect in every way. You wouldn’t go for me with my passable face and decomposing personality.
After 5 months, I can’t stop, because you dominate my brain and I wonder if you think of me. I wonder how you’re doing and if you’re happy… I hope you’re happy, at the very least. I don’t know what else I’ve thought of in these 5 months.
After 5 months, I lay in bed, thinking of how lovely it’d be if you were right here. I fall asleep with you on my mind and wake up the same. I realized every day that I wanted to get away from you. I tried to run from you and the thought of you. I’m trying to run away from the same person I’m chasing.
After 5 months, I’m thinking of you, but you’re thinking of her
After 5 months, I still love you and you love her
After 5 months, I’m still trying to forget about you and you’ve forgotten about me entirely